A Lil Too Late

just as i was busy enjoying myself doing headstand on all of karen's soft toys, my phone started ringing informing me that my MD was then ready to see me...

ops! i had totally forgotten about my one-on-one meet with him... quickly, i grabbed my phone and rushed down for my session with him... this is not my first session with the company MD... ever since i threw in the towel, i already had a session with my other MD... for understanding's sake, my company has 2 MDs... one is called the malaysian division MD while the other is the overseas division MD...

anyway, my first session with the overseas division MD early this week didnt go as well as i had hoped... he was adamant to get me to change my mind and for me to retract my letter... up to the point of saying that i'd be making my biggest mistake in my life... and then i was put on the shelve along with esther for being the stubborn girls... haha! while he refused to accept my resignation, i had no other choice but to tell him i'll reconsider my decision to leave the company and get back to him next fri... unfortunately for him, i had thought this through for some time now and will not change my mind...

my session with malaysian division MD on the other hand was much easier that i thought... i was expecting more accusations of being ungrateful... to my surprise, he took it all in with more grace... we had a short chat on my choice of career and my decision to leave the corporation... his more or less words were:

"the company's direction is to retain all performing talents... although i would like to retain you, we need to have a mutual agreement on this... if you have decided to leave the company, i can only wish you all the best..."

my eyes almost popped out over his statement... me, a performing talent??? that is a humongous compliment from him... and his acceptance over this... but then again, my guess is that he accepted it over the fact that i would be leaving for one of the big fours... probably he understood the exposure for me would be so much greater than what this company can offer...

darn... his gracefulness didnt make it any easier for me to remain firm on my decision... it was already hard for me to leave my colleagues... it hurts so much that i will be leaving such a HR driven company with so much support from both MDs... and it hurts even more knowing that i am leaving at a time when the company is expanding and needed as much human capital as they can get... what more i'm almost solely the only one that is the driving force of the balanced scorecard strategic approach... i hope the person i'm handing this over can pick it up fast enough not to leave the department hanging... and i sure hope, for my department's sake, the new guy, RZ can pick up IT fast enough to replace me as the tech pillar...