i hear this a lot... time heals... does it really??? lessen the pain, yeah maybe... healing, i seriously doubt it... open wounds remain open, probably just forgotten for the time being before you realised the dripping blood and hurt all over again... either that, or until you get used to the aching pain turning it to numbness...
loosing individuals whom i gravitate to or individuals whom i used to care or individuals i used to think they matters... that aint something new to me... neither was it easy on me every time it happens... after all of this, i dont think i ever healed... not for my grandparents almost a decade ago... not even for noodles less than half a year ago... or living individuals whom i had assumed dead various times over the last decade or so...
for some, hatred took over the pain... for others, i get used to the pain... making them all the more bearable... at some point, getting used to it felt like it's just a normal passing day... unfortunately, there are those with lingering pain that hides intermittently... just like a betting game, to see how long before the next wave of pain hits me... this week had been just that week...
sometimes, i still come home half expecting the dynamite to greet me... to irritate the hell out of me... these memories, at times it makes me smile... knowing i've been blessed with such love and had the opportunity to experience it... well, there are times when it knocks the wind out of me with grieve... oh and of course, it didnt help that when the sadness creeps in, i torture myself with sad soap operas...
aihzzz~ brain oh brain... why cant you just convince yourself that the wounds are all healed and there's no emotional pain in this world??? *slap slap* looks like it's time to wake up from my dream... XP
Just so you know... I'm not dead YET.
ReplyDeleteCheer up girl! *hugs*hugs*
of course you're not... hahahah!
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